Still Struggling

I have not even wanted to blog till this morning. So very much has happened since my last post. The loss of my mom has left such a huge hole in my life. It has already been 6 weeks but it feels like it was yesterday. I think because it was so sudden and no one was able to say goodbye it has been harder. There are still so many times everyday I think "I have got to tell mom that" and then I remember she is gone.

Sunday thoughts

I truly believe that my higher power (who I choose to call GOD) speaks to me with music if I will just listen. I love music of all types as you can tell by the collection of songs that I have on this blog, the one that I added today is a beautiful song by Alan Jackson that just touched my heart. I still struggle everyday with the loss of one of my very best friends in the world, Kristi K, and I just love this song. Kristi's sister actually is the one that told me that I needed to hear it and I am so glad I did.
Still attending meetings of AA or NA daily, just to get back into the groove of things. I always tell the girls that I sponsor that they need to do 90/90, so it will not hurt me to do the same!!!
I always hear something that I need to hear in a meeting and this morning was no different...
Tomorrow I hope that there is some news from Neva's Dr's about her bone marrow biopsy and if this is Leukemia that it is the type that can be treated quickly and eradicated completely. If there is anyone that I know that can walk through an illness with grace and maintain her faith it is Neva. Prayers are constant here in Spearman town and all over for her full recovery.

plodding along this path

Well this has been a pretty good day, we started a hospice volunteer class and there were 16 that came to the first day. It went fairly smoothly. Last night there were 4 of us that went over to Borger to an NA meeting, and I went to an AA meeting tonight. It was a candle light meeting and it was very good. All in all just a pretty good day..... I have to go and get all the clocks changed so we will be to church on time in the morning!!! Day light savings time so sux!!!

Return and begin again

Well it sure has been a long time!!! Life has been moving forward at a rapid pace, as life always does. Jeremy is in Korea and will be there a month. The other 3 boys are doing good. Dusty hit a cow the other night and messed up his car, but he and his friends were ok. There was another car that hit the same cow right after him and they flipped end over end and landed in a pasture. They were not so lucky, they flew the driver to Amarillo via helocopter and took 4 small kids to the Dumas hospital. Work is busy and I am back to looking for another nurse. I had one for 6 weeks and she was great, but she was not able to stay. I am getting back in to the recovery mode and have been trying some new meetings in surrounding towns. It gets kind of stale after a while when all you have are the same 3 or so people all the time. Well just a quick post before work.

Trip to Kentucky

Kylee and I had a great trip visiting Jeremy in Kentucky and being there for his graduation from Basic training!!! We were able to take him off base for the weekend. It was so hard leaving him again, but he has 6 more weeks of AIT (advanced individual training) and then he gets to come home for a little while. It may be a week and it could be up to a month depending on what the Army decides... We found out that he will be stationed at Fort Stewart in Georgia for up to 6 months before he ships out for deployment in Iraq, but that seems to change everytime we get a letter. The one thing that I have learned about the Army is that you can expect them to change their mind at least 5 times before every step along the way!!! Jeremy looked great and he is so much different now. He lost 15 pounds in basic training and he didn't have 15 to lose. He is so respectful and grown up now. The next time I get to see him will be Oct. 2 when he has his graduation from AIT.
The other 3 kids are doing great, school start Monday and Nate is starting kindergarden. The summer flew by so fast, where does the time go???

He is not a baby any more!!!

Jeremiah Jordan Frost

Man he is all grown up now!!! Can't believe that this is that chubby little baby that I used to cuddle and rock for hours at a time.
I have gotten to speak to him 2 times for less than 5 minutes each time over the last 2 months. He left here on June 9Th. I get letters from him weekly and he seems to be fitting in pretty well. I get to go and see him this week in Kentucky. I have never been to Kentucky before, Jeremy's girlfriend (Kylee) and I are flying out on Thursday morning and we get to stay till Monday. He gets to leave the base with us for the weekend. I am so ready to get on that plane... I am taking his platoon 36 dozen cookies, a dozen for each member of the platoon. I am still not sure how I am going to get them on American Airlines without it costing an arm and a leg, but I am going to get it done!!! I will have to get lots of pictures while I am there, and share them with you guyes. well things are still busy around here, I lost two patients over the weekend. That is another reason I want to get away.

July update before July is over

Well I finally got to talk to Jeremy, it was a month before I was able to talk to him on the phone. We talked about 2 minutes. I cried the entire time... Boo Hoo Hoo... I sure do miss him. Things here are very busy. Work is still a rat race, the LVN is still out with her foot, I think it has been 6 weeks now that she has been off. The 3 kids still at home are doing well. Dusty got all signed up with the Army. I learned with Jeremy that there is no use trying to fight it, so I just signed. It will be good for Dusty too. Jeremy has written us 6 letters so far. He sounds good, and I get to go visit in Aug. I can't wait. Kylee (his girlfriend) is going with me and we are flying to Kentucky. He gets out of basic training in Oct. on the 2nd or 3rd. He said he wants to be Baptized when he gets home. He has been reading his bible and praying. That is so exciting. Well this was just a quick update before the month flies by. School will be starting soon, where did the summer go???